To forgive...

... is easy, but how easy is it to forget? I usually consider myself as one who doesn't take things too seriously and I typically shrug off jabs and annoyances ppl throw at me. Yesterday, however, proved me wrong. My housemate did something to purposely piss me off, and while it should've been shrugged off (as his attempt to piss me off failed since I wasn't playing WoW - and even if I was, I would've typically laughed it off since it was something minor), the fact that he did it on purpose somehow set me off. It's amazing what kind of thoughts ran through my head right after as all I could think of was how to get the fucker. In fact, it kind of scares me. I remembered some of the other things he did that I thought I've already forgiven him for. Yet if I truly, really did forgive him for those things, why'd I remember them? So yeah, they fuelled my thoughts for revenge pretty quickly. It wasn't until later that I looked at it in perspective and calmed down. Now what's bugging me is how I almost overreacted. Can one truly forgive? If so, why couldn't I? Why did I still remember the bad things and why did they come across my mind before the good things did? Maybe it's not as easy as I thought to forgive someone. I've "snapped" before, so this disruption of inner peace greatly disturbs me now as it almost happened again. Anyway, we're cool now and I must work on maintaining my inner peace so that I won't do something I'll regret. Heh, perhaps it's indeed serenity now, insanity later :D

And Tim...
-something about how you suck at pingpong?
though you did have an injury that time...
... bring it on bitch! XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

[Edit] Oh, I guess I should put in here that he's a cool/reasonable guy - while he does things to annoy you, he learns when to stop... so yeah, the intent of this entry is not to put him in some bad light... in fact, I'm more mad/disappointed at myself than him